it hurts.
it hurts so bad.
I give people advice about this bullshit all the time, and it makes so much sense, and it's right. I know its right. and I know i dont need a guy to make me happy, and i dont need a relationship. and i know i'll find someone better eventually. but, when you have to take your own advice, you realize why its so hard for others to listen.
when people give you advice they dont tell you that in the process of feeling better, and moving on, you have to cry. And you have to see yourself when you're weak, and when your vulnerable. No one tells your that you start to hate yourself slowly. and that everything is somehow always your own fault. no one tells you, that youre gonna cry when your alone, and that you will think you'll never be good enough for anyone. and no ever tells you it gets worse because you find out things you never realized before.
I had him. He was mine. I pushed, and I shoved. He looked for something better, came up short, and he was left with me. Sucks to know that in the end, you were second best, when at first, you were everything. Sucks when your weak and you dont wanna get out of bed. you know what else sucks? when he just wants to talk.
i never wanna talk to you again.
but i will, because im weak.
and i will listen to your words,
and fall for it.
but you know what.
you cant do this to me.
Too many people wont let you.
so fuck off.


"He just walked away,
why didnt he tell me?
This isnt happening to me.
This cant be happening to me.
He didnt say a word,
Just walked away.
You were the first to say,
that we were not okay,
you were the first to lie,
when we were not alright."