Dear ex best friend.
You.. are a bitvh.
You are so lucky that I didnt call your dumbass out in the hall.
You're nothing but a bitch.
Get with him, and see what happens to your face.
I DECLINED one of your exs who hurt you more than anything on facebook, because I STILL RESPECT YOU.
But youre best friends with mine now?
Youre a snake, and I hate you.
I have never been so happy to not be friends with someone in my life.
You would have just kept lying to me.
Wanna hang out with ?
Oh you thought I didnt know?
Wrong.
Late or not, I'll always find out.
Now you fucked up.
And now i hate you.
"Oh well we arent enemies, I just dont see us ever being like we were"
oh.. well thats cute.. CAUSE NOW WE ARE ENEMIES, you dumb fucking smut.
I hate you.
And you will know about it.
Don't ever talk to me again.
Smile at me like we're cool;; and you'll regret it.
TEST ME, bitch. I fucking dare you.
Friday, January 14, 2011
Thursday, January 6, 2011
It never felt right calling this just friends...
I get so mad at the thought of you being with someone as often as youre with me.
I get pissed all the time when I stop and think about it.
Never does it seem to fail to put me in a bad mood.
You know there are times when I'll be happy as I can be, and I'll think about how you don't love me like I love you, or you just dont see things the way I do..
And My mood changes instantly.
I sometimes have to leave the room I'm currently in if people are surrounding me, because explaining my bipolar moment to people never really seem appealing.
I try so hard to stay mad at you. But I know when I'm being ridiculous.
So I cave. Every. Single. Time.
Now I've been told you are out of my league.
And although it sucks more than anything to hear..
It's true.
Why on earth, would I think that you ever settle for someone like me when you can have any girl you want.
I'm naive and immature for thinking such things.
Hearing it, sucks. But at the end of the day, I still know it's true and that you deserve the best.
So I will try my best to get back to my state of mind before I thought things between us might be changing.
I will try to be okay with you finding someone else.
And I will try to be okay with you not telling me certain things.
And I will try to be okay with you not talking to me all day every day.
Which, will bother me even if I DO get back on track.
Because no matter what I say I DO wanna talk to you all day everyday.
So Screw That :)
Ugh I love every little thing about you.
and it honestly hurts sometimes.
I honest to God, find myself thinking about you and my stomach hurts.
What the hell is that? Like why on earth would my stomach hurt?
It's painful loving you, dearest.
It's more pain than I've felt in a long time.
But then when youre here, its the happiest I have been in 4 years, and I love you more because of that.
It's strange how well we truely get along.
Like it's a tad creepy.
You finish my sentneces as I finish yours.
You say what I'm thinking before I think It.
YOU EVEN, say what I'm thinking, when it's off topic.
We wont even be talking about what I'm thinking about, and you'll say my exact thoughts.
You know me better than anyone.
You read me better than anyone.
You understand me better than anyone.
You know the movie, my best friends wedding?
With Julia Roberts?
Yeah, thats gonna be me and you.
You will find a blonde, thats nothing like me.
and we get along better and have more fun.
But you'll be in love with the beautiful blonde, while I sit loving you, watching you get married.
That will be the saddest day of my life.
We will no longer be the person the other one goes too about everything.
The day you stop telling me everything..
yeah that day will be horrible.
I didnt tell you I went on a broadway trip and we both found that weird.
A BROADWAY TRIP.
what the hell would you do if I didnt tell you anything else?
We are made for eachother. and yet we were made to be strictly best friends.
I hate not being able to tell you I love you every night before you go to bed.
I hate that you don't tell me you need me.
But I know you do.
And deep down.. I know that you know that I love you.
And I think thats why every time i say i hate you. You look at me with those green eyes, smile, and say "no you dont".
You know. And I know you know.
But im comfortable.. and You keep me around cause im something to do.
You drive me crazyyy with everything you do.
When you're here, I go nuts when your attention isnt on me.
I hate it. and you know THAT too.
I know you do.
Why else would you notice something was wrong if no one else in the room did?
I know you know. But you dont know how to say you know.
And I hate it.
You read me so well, all the time.
We've been more touchy and flirty than we've ever been.
and I dont know how to take it.
I really dont.
You are so confusing.
Youre best friend thinks we should date.. hahahahhaha
funny right? I thought so too.
You and I would KILL eachother if we dated.
hahaha it would be crazy.
We'd do nothing and still have fun though.
WE COULD WATCH STRAIGHT TO THE DVD EVERYNIGHT!
That would keep you happy, you big goon.
Well.. These are all the things I wish I could say to you..
And tonight I finally get to say I love you.
I love you, my dear. sleep well.
I get pissed all the time when I stop and think about it.
Never does it seem to fail to put me in a bad mood.
You know there are times when I'll be happy as I can be, and I'll think about how you don't love me like I love you, or you just dont see things the way I do..
And My mood changes instantly.
I sometimes have to leave the room I'm currently in if people are surrounding me, because explaining my bipolar moment to people never really seem appealing.
I try so hard to stay mad at you. But I know when I'm being ridiculous.
So I cave. Every. Single. Time.
Now I've been told you are out of my league.
And although it sucks more than anything to hear..
It's true.
Why on earth, would I think that you ever settle for someone like me when you can have any girl you want.
I'm naive and immature for thinking such things.
Hearing it, sucks. But at the end of the day, I still know it's true and that you deserve the best.
So I will try my best to get back to my state of mind before I thought things between us might be changing.
I will try to be okay with you finding someone else.
And I will try to be okay with you not telling me certain things.
And I will try to be okay with you not talking to me all day every day.
Which, will bother me even if I DO get back on track.
Because no matter what I say I DO wanna talk to you all day everyday.
So Screw That :)
Ugh I love every little thing about you.
and it honestly hurts sometimes.
I honest to God, find myself thinking about you and my stomach hurts.
What the hell is that? Like why on earth would my stomach hurt?
It's painful loving you, dearest.
It's more pain than I've felt in a long time.
But then when youre here, its the happiest I have been in 4 years, and I love you more because of that.
It's strange how well we truely get along.
Like it's a tad creepy.
You finish my sentneces as I finish yours.
You say what I'm thinking before I think It.
YOU EVEN, say what I'm thinking, when it's off topic.
We wont even be talking about what I'm thinking about, and you'll say my exact thoughts.
You know me better than anyone.
You read me better than anyone.
You understand me better than anyone.
You know the movie, my best friends wedding?
With Julia Roberts?
Yeah, thats gonna be me and you.
You will find a blonde, thats nothing like me.
and we get along better and have more fun.
But you'll be in love with the beautiful blonde, while I sit loving you, watching you get married.
That will be the saddest day of my life.
We will no longer be the person the other one goes too about everything.
The day you stop telling me everything..
yeah that day will be horrible.
I didnt tell you I went on a broadway trip and we both found that weird.
A BROADWAY TRIP.
what the hell would you do if I didnt tell you anything else?
We are made for eachother. and yet we were made to be strictly best friends.
I hate not being able to tell you I love you every night before you go to bed.
I hate that you don't tell me you need me.
But I know you do.
And deep down.. I know that you know that I love you.
And I think thats why every time i say i hate you. You look at me with those green eyes, smile, and say "no you dont".
You know. And I know you know.
But im comfortable.. and You keep me around cause im something to do.
You drive me crazyyy with everything you do.
When you're here, I go nuts when your attention isnt on me.
I hate it. and you know THAT too.
I know you do.
Why else would you notice something was wrong if no one else in the room did?
I know you know. But you dont know how to say you know.
And I hate it.
You read me so well, all the time.
We've been more touchy and flirty than we've ever been.
and I dont know how to take it.
I really dont.
You are so confusing.
Youre best friend thinks we should date.. hahahahhaha
funny right? I thought so too.
You and I would KILL eachother if we dated.
hahaha it would be crazy.
We'd do nothing and still have fun though.
WE COULD WATCH STRAIGHT TO THE DVD EVERYNIGHT!
That would keep you happy, you big goon.
Well.. These are all the things I wish I could say to you..
And tonight I finally get to say I love you.
I love you, my dear. sleep well.
Tuesday, January 4, 2011
But if it keeps you around; Then I'm down.
So I guess being used is okay...
I mean.. whats the big deal?
Right?
WRONG AS FUCKING ALWAYS.
Everything is the big deal.
How do I ALWAYS end up being the one that's being used.
I'm better off alone, with no friends.
Back up off of me, and we'll be good.
Wanna...?
No. I wanna punch you in your face.
Wanna...?
No. I wanna kick you in your jaw.
Wanna...?
No. I wanna drop kick you to the floor.
I wish more than anything that I could hate you.
Thattt my dearest would be amazing.
nfjasfiojasfoj likeee really?
Just stop talking to me.
Foreverrr.
Stay out of my life.
and make me miss you every single day.
Pleaseee..
Just kidding, please dont leave.
that would hurt more than any break up and we arent even together.
When the hope for a future dies out what are you suppose to do?
I don know what to do anymore.
Everything I thought, is a joke.
And I'm an idiotic girl for ever thinking otherwise.
YOU WINKED AT ME.
youre hot.
You'd be funnn.
You hate me.
We'd never happen either.
Life is full of bullshit.
YOURE moving.
oh hey, youre cool.
You'll fuck that up too.
ughhh I hate you.
You are fake.
You are a bitch.
I hate you allllll.
:/
I mean.. whats the big deal?
Right?
WRONG AS FUCKING ALWAYS.
Everything is the big deal.
How do I ALWAYS end up being the one that's being used.
I'm better off alone, with no friends.
Back up off of me, and we'll be good.
Wanna...?
No. I wanna punch you in your face.
Wanna...?
No. I wanna kick you in your jaw.
Wanna...?
No. I wanna drop kick you to the floor.
I wish more than anything that I could hate you.
Thattt my dearest would be amazing.
nfjasfiojasfoj likeee really?
Just stop talking to me.
Foreverrr.
Stay out of my life.
and make me miss you every single day.
Pleaseee..
Just kidding, please dont leave.
that would hurt more than any break up and we arent even together.
When the hope for a future dies out what are you suppose to do?
I don know what to do anymore.
Everything I thought, is a joke.
And I'm an idiotic girl for ever thinking otherwise.
YOU WINKED AT ME.
youre hot.
You'd be funnn.
You hate me.
We'd never happen either.
Life is full of bullshit.
YOURE moving.
oh hey, youre cool.
You'll fuck that up too.
ughhh I hate you.
You are fake.
You are a bitch.
I hate you allllll.
:/
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