Sweetie;; You had me.

I'm a really angry person.
Everything that happens in my life, makes me angry.
I should be upset, and sad.. But instead I get pissed off.
I punch things all the time.
All. The. Time.
Today, it was because YOU are an idiot.
I really do hate you.
Like, if it was anyone else, I would have flipped out on them by now.
But it's not.
It IS you.
And I can't do that.
I hate that about myself.
I let you run my life;; without you even knowing about it.
You have no idea I feel this way.
But I wouldn't want you too.
When I tell people I love you, But I would never date you.
I'm not kidding.
I could never ever date you.
I honestly think even if you would text me right now;;
and tell me how in love you've been with me, since blah blah blah, some gay lovey dovey thing..
I would say no.
No, I will not date you.
and no, I will not fall further in love with you, while you fall in love with me.
No.
I can't lose you.
And we would hate eachother by the time that relationship ended.
Because I know it would end.
It wouldnt grow, and get better with time, and stronger.
No. We would kill eachother.
Because we are the same person, and we are too damn stubborn.
Our fights would last forever.
And you would never admit when you're wrong.
And I'll explain to you why I'm right
We wouldn't work.
And I'd lose you.
I couldn't live with that.
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You make me so angry.
I hate you.
I really do.
Like today..
You really needed to tell me that you were gonna be home saturday?
Kiss myyyy assss.
Do you have any idea how many times TOTAL I have ditched my friends for you?
And you couldnt do it one day?
And now you wanna "just let me know" That you're gonna be home saturday?
No.
You fucking asshole.
I will no ditch my friends AGAIN.
P.s... I said this last weekend..
I HATE YOU.
Like it's my fault why I cave.
If I ever flipped out on you for this..
You would win. Cause you NEVER tell me to ditch my friends.
I CHOOSE TOO.
Which sucks too.
Because I hate myself for doing it.
WHY CAN'T I SAY NO TO YOU?!
It's so easy for me to say no to anyoneee else.
ANYONE.
But you.
No.
You could tell me to jump off a cliff, and tell me it wouldnt hurt.
And I'd probably do it.
That's how FUCKING RETARDED I am when it comes to you.
No normal person does that.

OH!!!! thennn!
you talk to the girl you hooked up with before.
You guys are gonna end up hanging out..
since ya know.. she needs to get "HEALTHY"?!..
and then you guys are gonna "hang out"
YEAH!. uhhh. Like WE.. hang out?
Asshole.
I hate you.
I really do.
You're a piece of shit.
And you are gonna go and "hangout" with her, and with my luck, come over after..
or the next day..
Why else would you hang out with her?
You don't even like her.
YOU'RE ALREADY GETTING IT.
So whyyy?!?!?!?!
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you suck.
you make me crazy.
I wishhh I was strong enough to say goodbye to you.
But I cant. And I wont.
It's so hard to live my life with you in it.