You know it sucks. You know it. You wake up, and everything just sucks. Like fuck life, yah know? I'm happy for the most part. But I'm becoming alone, again. I guess its a yearly routine. ya know, get the boyfriend, be happy. Then slowly start to ruin it, and second guess, but know that you want the relationship. Lose all your friends, and not care that you're losing them. Miss the past, but want the future. Get sick of everyone and everything around me. Start to think about my past more and more. And want control over my life. Control over something. Anything. That one thing, that I have control over. No, that can't be an option anymore. It wont be... Well.. it can be. It might be. It will be. Yearly routines. Routines:usual pattern of activity: the usual sequence for a set of activities. Yeah, that sounds about right. I did it for the past two years around this time, why stop now. Especially when the reason for stopping isnt there to catch me from falling again? Fuckkk it. Life, is boring. What is life good for anyway? To make you fuck up your life and other peoples before you all just die in the end? Cool God, thanks for giving us that opportunity. Thank you for making me think about why I'm here, because i shouldnt be. I mean, everyone has a purpose? Why dont we all just rebel and fuck the world up. Who even knows how to be happy anymore? Does anyone even know the meaning to the word? No. Probably not. You think you need certain things in your life to be happy. yeah, well, ya dont. You need you to be happy. And apparently, you need sex, love, and drugs too. The world is stupid now. My world is stupid now. OH. yearly routines. Ya know what that means? I get to drink every weekend, for the next 2 months!... fuck this. i hate my life.